in His time...

so here it is:

my very first blog although i've been reading others' blogs for a while and something within me prompted me to begin this one.

so why the name "la paciencia"? la paciencia means patience in spanish and it's a recurrent theme in my life especially in the past eight months. indeed, God is gracious and i've been trying to learn this virtue but often times to my own dismay, i end up falling flat on my face. i tend to trust in my own self rather than to give my all to the One who knows best...cerebrally, i know that i need to let GO....& unfortunately, i hold on, and sometimes, too tightly.

the thought of beginning a family has been on our minds for a while now, and i had the myth that once we start to "try" then it's all dandy and BANG, we would conceive right away. unfortunately, life doesn't work that way and God usually has a better plan. thus, our baby-making journey began in jan. 06 and to my surprise, month after month, i did not conceive and i could not figure out why? vince and i are both young, in good health (at least i try to be), and we exercise frequently....SO, what is the problem?

on one lazy, july evening as i was watering our garden, God whispered to me and said just one simple word: "patience". it was then that i finally let go....and i knew that i had to completely trust Him....

i often have this tendency of wanting things right away (just ask my mom and she can testify) and so with this whole conception thing, it was difficult. so i kept on repeating the word patience to myself and i was reminded that everything beautiful happens in His time. yes, even my dry, yellow lawn that i desperately wanted to be evergreen would need time to be nurtured.

once i entrusted my whole life to Him, an immense peace and joy surpassed through me. at the beginning of august, i found out that i was PREGO! praise God! (the long-awaited twins?)

currently, i'm on my 14th week of my pregnancy and it's been super exciting. i am thankful that the first tri is over!

When i found out that i was pregnant, i was overjoyed and i praised God using Hannah's prayer.

1 Samuel, Chapter 2

1 "My heart rejoices in the LORD;
in the LORD my horn [a] is lifted high.
My mouth boasts over my enemies,
for I delight in your deliverance.
2 "There is no one holy [b] like the LORD;
there is no one besides you;
there is no Rock like our God.

3 "Do not keep talking so proudly
or let your mouth speak such arrogance,
for the LORD is a God who knows,
and by him deeds are weighed.

4 "The bows of the warriors are broken,
but those who stumbled are armed with strength.

5 Those who were full hire themselves out for food,
but those who were hungry hunger no more.
She who was barren has borne seven children,
but she who has had many sons pines away.

6 "The LORD brings death and makes alive;
he brings down to the grave [c] and raises up.

7 The LORD sends poverty and wealth;
he humbles and he exalts.

8 He raises the poor from the dust
and lifts the needy from the ash heap;
he seats them with princes
and has them inherit a throne of honor.
"For the foundations of the earth are the LORD's;
upon them he has set the world.

9 He will guard the feet of his saints,
but the wicked will be silenced in darkness.
"It is not by strength that one prevails;

10 those who oppose the LORD will be shattered.
He will thunder against them from heaven;
the LORD will judge the ends of the earth.
"He will give strength to his king
and exalt the horn of his anointed."


Part of Psalm 139 also reminds me of how miraculous life is...

13 For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,
16 your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.

Thank you for reading my first blog! (i know that i tend to be long-winded).... please keep us in your prayers as we prepare for this BIG new phase of our lives especially as i've been feeling a bit sick lately with a sore throat that doesn't seem to go away.

It's great to finally share this exciting news!

Here's a glimpse of baby chan....